Thursday, May 24, 2007

diploma?-a years time.

afzal is going up the stage and getting his hands on the much deserved diploma. alfie's is in another few days time. esdy and farid had worked hard and had graduated from their JCs with full A-level cert. all of them is almost certain to enter into good universities.

me? still struggling in school. im wondering. will i ever graduate.will i ever get my hands on that rolled piece of paper. the semester is almost over. the dateline for my FYP is getting nearer. the thing is ,we have not even started on our project. what happens if i fail the FYP? i have to take it next semester-or 2? then i will be a 5th year student in SP.

the semestral exams is round the corner and i HAVE to start attending to classes. especially lectures. man. i have to change. i need this diploma.

| name fought for sanity @ 11:26 AM|

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

-bukan diriku- samsons-

Setelah kupahami

Aku bukan yang terbaik

Yang ada di hatimu

Tak dapat kusangsikan

Ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu

Bukanlah diriku ..

Kini maafkanlah aku

Bila aku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu

Bukan santunku terbungkam

Hanya hatiku berbatas 'tuk mengerti kamu

Maafkanlah aku..

Walau ku masih mencintaimu

Ku harus meninggalkanmu

Ku harus melupakanmu

Meski hatiku menyayangimu

Nurani membutuhkanmu

Ku harus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu

Yang mampu memahamiku

Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah

Yang sanggup menyanjungmu

Yang ramah menyentuhmu

Bukanlah diriku..

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this song is on repeat mode on my mp3 player.

enjoy.

| name fought for sanity @ 2:28 PM|

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-the day when man utd lost-

i could not describe the feeling.. its sadder than sad its angrier than angry.

chelsea defeated my beloved man utd to be the new FA cup champions.

its sad to see john terry lifting the cup. its hard bereaking to see drogba celebrating.

ryan giggs goal should have counted.

well its part and parcel of a game. u win some and u loose some.

next season: the quadruple!

| name fought for sanity @ 1:55 PM|

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-5th day of the week- farid-day-

mom either read my blog or she could read my mind. she cooked my favourite dish- the rendang on friday. i was suppose to be in school but i woke up late. i was awoken by the aroma of the rendang. wad a reward for skipping school!! well as they say mom knows best.

it seems like every friday is farid day. cos that is the day whens he book out from camp. so last friday day was no difference.

BOOM!!

BOOM!watched Blades of Glory together with Afzal n Rose. n thanks rose for the treat!!BOOM! well not really a treat but she paid half of our tickets.. cool.BOOM! the show was really funny. i realised that most will farrell shows has similarities.. all of them revolves around sex. just like the anchorman,talladega nights and old school. BOOM!

farid is imagining wad is like to be in bed with the lady behind him

| name fought for sanity @ 1:36 PM|

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Thursday, May 17, 2007

-fuck school!!-

warning letters after warning letters. i simply dont have the mood to go to school. i myself do not know why. maybe because all my friends had graduated. maybe because school is far from my place. maybe beacause school of EEE lacks of chicks. maybe because school hours is long. mayb..just mayb..

mom dad, dont worry.. i'll get the fcuking diploma for you. im big enough to think for myself. so stop forcing me and stop getting urself stressed out. just dont talk about school to me. i hate school.

| name fought for sanity @ 10:01 AM|

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

-DONT LOOK BACK-

Finally!!! caught jangan pandang balakang-dont look back. been wanting to watch it since it opens in cinema. caught it with Polina- my russian friend. yeah. i brought a russian to a Malay movie.

the movie was not so scary as i expected. i guess shutter was scarier. scariest part was when the guy carried his "opah" when actually it was the momok. the funniest past is when the pak imam say to the granny.

"siapa kau?" the possessed granny said " BAPAK KAU!" suppose to be scary but its funny. even polina was laughing.

I really2 miss mom's cooking. those rendang.. sambal goreng.. asam pedas.. nowadays dad do all the cooking. im not complaining about the cooking.. in fact some of his dishes are nice.. but everytime i had dad's home cook food, the next day i will have a terrible stomachache. like tday for instance i went 2 the toilet for 5 times.

| name fought for sanity @ 11:54 PM|

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

-friends for life-

In this world,there's two type of people that can cheer me up whenever i'm down.

1)Spongebob and Patrick

they say theres a kid in everyone of us. well i admit i still watch cartoon. i love watching Spongebob Square Pants especially when im down. Just looking at the sponge can make me smile. i'll laugh my socks off watching their wacky acts and stupid conversations.simply love when patric says"AAAAH..spongebob..."with his low toned voice. since im not working on weekdays i'll make a point to catch it on Kids Central at 6pm everyday..

long live the yellow sponge and the pink starfish

2) KGB

what can i say about them. have always been there for me since secondary school. the past few days was really hard for me but i am so grateful that i have them. "laughter is the best medicine". in every outing i'll laugh till my stomach hurts. with our inside jokes that only us understands and our own language that no one understands like "peacock","busok" and ever porpular "SYAFIQ". im so glad that we are closer now. we use to go out like once or twice a year together ut now its like once or twice a week.

friends forever!

| name fought for sanity @ 10:33 PM|

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-pay-day-

music is essential in my life.i cant leave home without my mp3 player. i'll hear it when i wake up, when i bathe, during boring lectures, when riding, when at work and before i sleep-i'll sleep with the earphones.

so the 1st thing i did when i got my pay was bought myself cds. got myself the much anticipated linkin park's latest album- minutes to midnight, i've been waiting for the album for months!the other cd was extreme behavior by hinder. decide to get this cd after i heard their 2nd single-better than me. its as nice as it's first- lips of an angel. wanted to get maroon 5 latest album but it's only out next week.. so till then i'll just have to wait..

talking about maroon 5.. zal! mane cd2 aku.. da 4 tahun tau!

| name fought for sanity @ 9:47 PM|

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-WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!-

| name fought for sanity @ 12:01 PM|

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

-sentosa-

wad a day to spend ur weekend.

a trip to siloso beach brings back memories of patong beach.except there was no "my friend" to greet us.

just lazing by the beach with ur best friends, enjoying the sights under the sun. for that moments it just feels like disconnecting form the world. no worries. nothing to think about.

i was laughing my socks off throughout the whole day.1 keep on talking how tong aik man stole couple of bucks from a corpse. 1 keep on talking about getting his money back from esdy. n 1 keep on talking on how he would love to sleep with girls he see.

2 bad xarid din wasn'nt there to join us... BUSOK!ahha

| name fought for sanity @ 11:33 PM|

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Saturday, May 12, 2007

-happy mom's day-

have you wondered a life without a mom?

my mom have been in and out of hospital in the last few weeks. her sickness?? god knows.. all i can say is "a very bad headache". her headache is so bad that she neither could open her eyes nor stand up.

when this headache strikes, my heart could break into a million pieces seeing her in that state. shivering. crying. saying things that doesnt make sense. talking about death. everytime this happens i wish i could bear her pain. i wish i was the one suffering.

its been days since i see her smile. hear her laughter.

tday will be a special day for her. moms day. i just hope her "headache" doesnt strikes again.

her scan results will be out later this week. i hope n i pray that the scan brings good results. Even if there is something, i just wish its still in its minor stage and its curable.

to all the moms,grandmoms and moms-to-be.. happy moms day!

song's for you mom...

| name fought for sanity @ 10:44 PM|

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